You Can Try and Make This Pretty

GAH! Fall Break is almost over :'( That makes me sad. And I have the PSAT tomorrow. . .which totally sucks. Actually, it wouldn't suck so hard if I was actually prepared for it. Seeing as I'm not, it's going to suck. I might try and study a bit more, but I'll probably just end up playing Donkey Kong 64 until one in the morning like I have been doing.

Yea, I'm old school. I've also gotten addicted to Pokemon Puzzle League. It's unhealthy, sure, but I don't care. Tommy's all the way down in Mississippi taking care of family business, so I'm all lonely up here in Tennessee. 
Speaking of Tommy, I have a song stuck in my head that really makes me think of him. Actually, there's only a few lines, but they really stand out.

'Colorado Sunrise' by 3OH!3

And if I had something to say to you, I'd whisper it softly,
kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me.
Shiver on your roof and see your face lit by starlight,
hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.

I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I've made
'cause my tongue is tied to tonsles, and I need to shit and shave.
I'm a shade too pale for handsome and have habits I can't shake,
and if you try to take that from me, well, I'll never be the same

trainwreck that I am
and I am what I am what I am
a trainwreck, that I am
and I am what I am what I am
a trainwreck

and as long as it's okay with you, I think I'll stay right here.
I got no where to go 'cause where to go is up to you, dear.
Happy as a clam, I see the glimmer in your eyes.
Hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.

Obviously, there's no Colorado sunrises in Tennessee, but I was born in Colorado, so that counts, right?
In my head it does.

Oh! And my mother introduced me to the most awesome web comic EVER. The older ones are the best, but I think they're all pretty sweet. It's called Buttercup Festival, and you should start reading it! Here are some of my favorites:

And so on and so forth. Go read some more of it!

Ah. . .I don't want to take the PSAT tomorrow. I wanted to, but now I'm not so sure. I don't think I'd be so apprehensive about it if I could see Tommy afterwards, but he's away, so I can't :(

To make myself feel less horrible about his not being here, I was going to go to the movies with Cat, Greg, Dustin, and some other peeps, but, alas, my parents were like 'NOOOO! You can't go out at all the night before taking the PSAT!'

Which made me angry, seeing as I won 1st place at the French competition in middle school after staying up until midnight. I think I can take a PSAT test and do decently. Ah well. . . I thought I could handle Tommy being gone for the weekend, and I guess since I haven't killed myself, I've been handling it pretty well, but it leaves me in such a blah mood. .  .

It doesn't help that it's friggin' freezing outside, which means it's friggin' freezing inside, because my dad refuses to turn on the heat. The jerk.

He really is a jerk. Honest to God. It isn't just me being an angsty teenager. It's him treating me like total crap, and then trying to pass it off like he's being funny, when he really isn't that funny.

 

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